Aaaahhh.. Silence.. it is a little strange. Hubby is going to start running with the Moose after work, which should give me a good half hour to myself everyday. I know I should be cooking or cleaning or something right now, but I just want to do something for myself. Like play on the computer.
Its strange how most guys just don’t understand the need for “me” time. They get it when it comes to themselves, but they have no clue what a true SAHM goes through. Although Moose is very good in the car and I don’t have to constantly engage him, I am always aware of him in the car. I peek back at him every few seconds. And even though I take him shopping, I can’t just browse around. I am constantly trying to keep him happy. And try unloading a cart when you are wearing a baby.. it takes some skill and balance. Even at night when he is sleeping, I have the monitor on to make sure he doesn’t suddenly wake up.
I love my time with Moose, wouldn’t trade it for the world, but I have a whole new respect for my time alone. I know I need more of it, but that is easier said than done. I feel so guilty if I spend more than a half hour doing something just for me. Well, better start cooking before the boys bust through the door (see what I mean?!!?)